A Journey to Jesus: an autobiography
Loss of the Treasure
A few years back I lost all of my treasures; my whole earnings, all savings, all the bank balance of my entire life which consist all my poems, short stories, personal diaries, all the Ideas of movies, serials & song writings…
It was like loosing all that I had… felt like I should end my life now… what would I do without all of my writings… those were the only treasure I had… for all my life I earned these treasures only, nothing else not anything… where would I find all those treasures; all my poems, all my short stories, all my movie-serial-song ideas, all the personal diaries with all the details of my every day life History of all the years gone by…
One person present at the moment when ‘the case’ was revealed to me, said: ‘aisa kyon bol rahe hain… life rahi to aap fir likh lenge… aap hi ne to likha tha wo sab, aap rahe to fir likh lenge… khuda pe bharosa rakhein…’ I thought, Yes… may be its Lord’s wish… may be Jesus wanted me to be free from all my past… “you will know the truth and the truth shall set you free…”
This happened some times in the second half of the year 2009.
You are Precious
Also, I recalled one of my friends saying, “stop living in the past… at least for some time, just stop writing Diary and reading it again n again…” During my Ulhasnagar stay in 1997-98 one of my good friend would often tell me this, “thode din ke liye diary likhna-padhna band kar do… tera mind hamesha past mein hi ulajha rehta hai…” So I thought: Ok, may be it’s God’s way of telling me to get rid of all my past now, and to move ahead, to start afresh… but what about all the other writings namely my poems, short stories, numerous ideas for novels, film-serials & songs…? Well Man, you can write so many new things again, a whole new world is awaiting… the Lord have an all new and deferent plan for you… I thought.
[Hey, is this the same atheist-communist-writer-journo Sylani Singh? My old friends may got ashtonized with the developments & may think that way! Well my dear friends, let me tell you the most wonderful, the most beautiful ever story of my life; listen to it carefully…]
By the time had started believing in Christ, though considering myself as a Christian since the end of July 2004 itself; but was willing to do nothing to get Baptized thinking that I should to be a successful person first and than get baptized, so that no one can say that I came to Christ, to His holy Church, for worldly means say for monetary or financial benefits as there are a common misconception among the people regarding the newly baptized faithful… I doesn’t wanted the same ‘tag’ for myself; I wanted to let the whole world know that I chose Christ and His Church because He loves me… He saved me from death, from committing suicide… it was He who assured me that even the whole world is against you, even not a single person in this big-fat whole world doesn’t care about you to live or die, I care for you… and want you to live because I love you… ‘even if a mother abandoned her own child I wont leave you… you are precious for me… I want you to live…’
All this happened in my own home in Jamshedpur…
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